A Note from an Idealist

I’m an idealist through and through.

I know idealism isn’t very realistic in daily life and has driven me into a rut one too many times. However I feel like it has become such a big factor in who I am and how I define myself that without it I wouldn’t be me. I wouldn’t be Iesha.

I often struggle to find purpose and I know it might sound silly that that I need to have a purpose at this age. People have always told me that you’re not meant to think about life that much. I think through everything thoroughly innately. I need ambition. I need drive. I need adventure.

I love to be spontaneous and jump on an exciting new idea that pops into my mind during a period of ignited passion. At the same time I appreciate structure and an organised schedule because I have a huge phobia of idleness and doing nothing, unless of course that was my initial intention.

Sometimes idealism can leave you with high expectations and lead to frequent sometimes crushing disappointments. It, in this way, teaches us idealists to be resilient and elastically versatile. Instead of staying in the gutters over the failure of one project we spring at the next idea with enthusiasm.

As our passions and complete dedications can be fleeting I find that I become frustrated and stuck at the thought of ‘who am I?’ and ‘who I want to be? If I allow my thoughts ponder on it too long I can be left in an unpleasant place, feeling rather out of touch with myself.

We idealists aren’t all that bad though let me tell you. We crave knowledge and yearn for adventure. I can’t speak for all idealists when I say we aren’t home birds but wanderlust ignites me from the core. A tsunami of enthusiasm flows through my veins. When things aren’t going our way idealists tend not to wallow in their sadness for eternity, they search for a path to rejuvenation!               Sometimes something as simple as a change of hairstyle can bring the light of life back to my eyes. I look in the mirror and get surprised. A happy surprise like a ticket to Paris for your birthday kind of surprise.

I feel new. I feel alive. I feel unstoppable. The whole world lies at my fingertips pleading with me to conquer her.